puisi yang terbuang # 1

My PAIN

I told him...I didn’t think it was right

I told him over and over...he only laughed at me

I’ve never hated anything

I hate that laugh, but I remember between the blackouts

I was drunk, and still am, drunk on anger, sadness, fear

I think of nothing else...

I don’t sleep at night, it’s tearing me apart

I blink my eyes, one second it is night...the next, it’s early dawn

I’ve cried until there was no tear to fall and drown my thoughts

I once was pure of body,I don’t recall the change

Now I’m losing myself...

I’m sorry to share my pain...

I hate asking for help, admitting weakness

I hate this.......

I hate him.......

I think I’m beginning to hate my self...

I never told him not straight out

I paid for it in ways unheard

I’m losing everything

I’m drowning in a sea of pain........

I’m tired........I’m scared.......

I hate...........I hurt.............I’m lost...........

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